CHARLENE BIRTHDAY

I like this quote lol haahahah

“It doesn’t matter how slowly you go-so long as you do not stop.”-Confucius

So 4th November was Charlene's birthday
but it was a sunday.
and I kinda had a back to back exam on monday so me and my friends had to postpone da partaaay to monday after exam ladeeedadeeda boring.
So my plan was to kidnap Charlene.I told her before that I would and I really did hahahaha.
so people next time I say 'I will.....' I  definitely would ;)
solid proof that I always keep my promise ;) hahaah offtopic
Wait before that,
I was thinking what is Jay Park to Charlene?
hahahahaah
Then I think and think and think,
It was very hard lo,
coz Charlene like dont like anything wan lol...
so I thought of the next best thing,
it just suddenly came to my mind,
when I was with my friend in the shop I saw this scrapbook,
and I decided to compile wishes from all my classmates from all over the world,ok exaggeration but yeahh its kinda true?
SOOOOOoooOOO
after much 'ah long-ing'
I really can feel how 5A ketua kelas feel,really man the 5A students ahhh ada masalah kerjasama yg teruk.
sooooooooo ok I talk too much
here is da outcome!!!!!!!:D
it took me 7 hours(yes I counted!!)
which was like one night and half a day T_T
I was really rushing through it im so sorry this was the best I could doooo....T_T

 Front cover :D

 I know USA flag is so wrong on so many levels...and my eiffel tower is senget.

u draw la u criticizer u!!!

 Failed attempt of incorporating the English feeling ah~~

 This is the damneth coconut tree....it-it-it was not supposed to be like this T_T

It-it-it was supposed to be small and pretty and...but I cut cut cut then.... so humongous...then....u dont how much it troubled me T_T...ok enough

 I really really like what Laura,Rachel and Alex made....really pretty and no need me to decorate  further yeaaaah hahahah....it sits so well by itself haaha the pics so cute again hahahah

 and just so u know...this alex kan never fail,still need to mention about charlene boyfriend lolololol....even before i receive I already can sense that he will say it ahhahah

 I put the most important thing that strengthen the bond between stanley and charlene ahhahaha amazing race,masterchef and american idol ahhahh

 cough cough cough

 DANIAL=JUSTIN BIEBER I dont know y I was so sleepy this time....haahhahaah sorry for lack of deco,when I reach here already like 3 am liddat gahhhh

 AHHAHAHAH I had to do it wanted to put a heart around lam and chong photo

but my cutting paper skillzzz iz dabesss

 All saint badge so half-assesed made looke like a red king with

a green moustache T_T

 I tot puppy was a fake...ahahahah

 do u get it?ahahahahah inside joke

 This is my page and my secret msg inside ;)

 Please look properly at everyone....hahahah zoom in.and Clement face got printing problem lol

 

Leonard photo look like ah jib gor waving,I just had to do it.muahahah

I hope its nice enough for u guys,
Sorry for half-assesed photos coz u know la I really had no time mannnn....
I really tried my best,T_T
wanted to have like a really scrapbook feeling but....this was all I came up with.T_T
and er...I didnt take pic of Brendan Joey and Wong wan because they gave theirs to me too late.
oh oh...I made this card with alooooooooooot of recycled paper...coz dont waste baa...
and and and do u realized its tracing paper???
ahhaahhah I didnt know until like 3/4 time when I was doing the card wtf my dignity in the toilet,no wonder so the xpensiiivee T_T
BUt but but Charlene said she loved it but she did not cry(Miraen fail oh T_T)....
CHARLENE WHY U NO CRY???
So after stats paper on monday....
we were like talking talking talking
then leo was in charge of blindfolding charlene,
so when I saw him I quickly took of her specs,
and grab her
I tot she will be like AAAHHHHHHHHHHH kicking and screaming,
padahal she just silently stood there like a log lololol,
then kidnap her into Ariel car,
in the car she sempat again ask,while blindfolded and being pinned down,
'So how was maths?'
ahahahahahahahha
I wasnt in the car la so couldnt hear it lolol.
then we carried her into Mcd ahahah,and then everyone like apa diorang buat ni?
like got this guy like O_O at charlene hahahaah as we carried her in haahah
then
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLENE!!!!!!
ahahhaah my first time kidnapping a human
kinda success la hahahahah.
Im really glad that Charlene enjoyed her bday eventhough it was rather messy and the present too was rather lacking in magic lololol....I need sleep really i really doo ahahaha
So yeah Ill end it here for today look at me Im ss-ing....wtf ok have a great day everybody
sorry for the spastic post..... kthnxbai

How's its?

I have a bad problem,
a disorder maybe,
that I have to confess,
I am truly extremely obsessed with obtaining something anything I can't have.

The more harder it is,
the more impossible it is,
the more people tell me no,
the more I love it and can't let go.
Because of that,
I get more and more tired everyday,
trying to reach it or wasting time reassuring myself that I would some day.

Why do I need this?
Why do i have to think this way?

I believe everyone was given something, a trait,
that would help them be who they were supposed to be.
There is a reason for every single person in this Earth.corny yeah.
But what does stubborn and wishful thinking get?

Growing up is hard.
One day all your motivation and drive is going to dry out,
and what's left to pull u through is ur passion,
but thats gone,
its somewhere else.
I see the passion
in their eyes,
it feels like their going to swallow me whole,
and everyone will realize what a fraud Ive been
I dont want this
I dont need this
Effort will only get u that far.
and one day everyone is going to see who u really are.
An overly hardheaded dreamer that just had a little too much wishful thinking.

bad

Give none,take none,
expect nothing.

Good study music from Robin Thicke :D
its so chill,u dont even realized its playing!!!!lolwtf T_T
whats the point of listening u ask??
well I have a problem I like to sing a long,
and i know u do too ;)
So robin thicke's song have so many runs and OOOOOOoooooOO
it actually prevents u from trying!!!! because u know u cant do it!! :Dlolwtf ahahahahha
enjoy.....

haahaha I found this article.....let me share a little bit of it

When we are young, we all have dreams about the future.
Thankfully, by the time most of us grow up, we realize how incredibly intangible and difficult it is to accomplish such a dream.
Naturally, this is as it should be. However, for the unlucky few who still cling to the ridiculous dream of one day “publishing a novel” or “curing cancer,” the long and arduous road of constant failures and setbacks is an all too common occurrence. If you would like to break free from this real-world nightmare and learn how to blissfully coast through life as if in a coma, then do yourself a favor and follow these simple steps:
1. Get a Job That Slowly Sucks the Life Out of You
If you’re a dreamer, the first thing you need to get rid of is all that motivation and self drive. One of the best ways to flush these unwanted characteristics from your life is to slowly crush your spirit under the weight of an unfulfilling job.
 2.Buy a Premium Cable Package
If you’ve found the right job (i.e. the first one that was offered to you), then chances are you’ll be nice and wiped after putting in your 9 to 5 every day. At least, you better hope so – otherwise you may be tempted to pursue your dreams in the off hours. To eliminate such motivations, invest in a premium cable package.
3.Take Up Drinking
Drinking is another great way to slowly drown the motivation out of you.Plus, filling that hole inside of you with alcohol will trick you into thinking nothing is missing in your life.
4. Bring Others Down With You
Once you’ve successfully given up on your dreams and accepted life as a normal, completely average person, it’s time to pay it forward and help others by bringing them down with you. If a friend or loved one is struggling with giving up on his or her dreams, help them out by saying things like, “you’ll never succeed” or “why don’t you take a break and come watch some TV with me?”  Not only will this save your friend from a lifetime of heartbreak, but it will also make things more tolerable for you – remember, misery loves company.

 sorry just had to quote almost the whole thing,
sorry to bore u with bad humour.
I just had to post something,
and my exams are just so close....
I had to make a post and waste my time
because thats just how wonderful my mind is.
kthnxbai

*

I start with all these stuff in my head.
and when I start putting words into my thoughts,
it just flies away........T_T
How do u know when to follow ur gut feeling?
Did the people who fail, have the same strong tendencies to believe that that was it and that there was no other way,...-before they realized what a flop theyve been :S



remember this?lol
Im sick of not knowing what to do.....
AHHHHHHHHHH

It's not the end of the world

harloww...?

 old post hahahah  I dont know why i reverted it to draft but yeah...
Are u studying?coz im not :(  i try i try huuuuuuuhuuuu
daheck....im so sleepy
well,was looking through photos and guess what i found
a photo of me playing futsal wth ahahahaha
yes i know unbelievable but i kid u not

daz meee.....hahahah no more better pictures :( sad.
I forgot who took this but whatever...memories~hahahaha

 no substance....I dont know what to talk about
half my brain is filled up with stuff 'thatmighthelpmeinduuuuuhfuture'
this few days im starting to realize what a big disappointment I am. :(...im sorry for being noob at life T_T wtf...

A.S FML NOOOOOOOOOOO....
 I feel kinda weird,
im afraid my ugly writing would make me fail law,
furthermore my english was horrendous haiya,
i like brain farted my whole way through
I hope everything will be ok :(
as I think I tried kinda my best already.I mean wtf else do u want me to do??so yeah
and the time
Really man the time is sooooo short,to come up with a 4 page essay OMG!!!
30minutes pass like...haiya...
Im living it all in Your hands thats all I can do...T_T

It seems as though I have to be unhappy in order to grow up.but I really don't believe this is the way to do it!!

Can't be pleased livin if I'm dying to please ~ blobyblo

My first A In law?!!!tears of joy :3 worked my ass off.....AS is in a week or so....I wonder if I can do this....!!!!GAMABATEHHH!!!

I feel like Hariette the spy

But as if to knock me down reality came around and without so much as a mere touch cut me into little pieces ~~~ all the way home

Hey do u want fries with that?

All this time,

the dreams in my mind was all I ever had.

 

Got that feelingah¬ tumblr emo people feel wuahahahahah wtf....sorry i just gots to do it

I have no idea why i find this so funny.....ahahahahha


This is how my photography looks like ehhehe....I took this in Japan....ahhhh Japan so beautiful....suteki da ne?Got more again.....its not SLR is pure lousy 10?!megapixel digital camera.hahahhah*bragbrag* my mother and sister complained again lo...why u taking the picture no the people!!!!
OH ONE MORRRE SNOWWWW
GLORIOUS SNOW



This perfectly illustrates my face when people say 'no dont have/i didnt do that/no i dont want fries with that....

Ohhh end of year i want to go on a road trip AHHH it is so long overdued...
have been wanting to go since like what PMR??
Look at my moarrr photosss :3 :3 yeah




Early morning view...one of the reasons why dawn is dabesss.
 Yeah u cant see but this photos were taken near Sabah Tea Gardens seriously a good place to go....should try Tabin too!!!
OMG THIS IS NOT MIND BLOWING>>>ITS MIND BLASTIN BLASTING MY MIND!!
French crepe in a Melbourne sort of alleyway deliciousoooo.....

I liketh to take picture of my feet wtf....
ah study lo Kerry studdyyyy

ps.I wonder will people get pissed at my malaysian accent if I ever joined amazing race lolwtf ahahahah

Listening to familiar voices and seeing familiar faces :3....Feels just like before....hahahaa

눈앞이 검어. 세상은 너무나도 빨리 걸어. 나만 두 다리 절어. 갈 길이 한 없이 멀어. 이 길의 끝엔 뭐가 있을까? 넌 알고 가는 가? 그냥 눈 감은 채 이끌려 간다면 답 아는가? 이런 나의 질문엔 늘 답이 없는 하늘. 일상속에 묶인 두 팔은 꿈조차도 못 잡을 만큼 무거워. 겁이나 갇혀져 버린 나..

Expectations kills....heart racing head pounding at how unprepared I am...:(

When it's all said and done...happiness happiness is all I shall ever want...I can't type my blogger sot :( .....:3 my new favorite face hahaha :3 :3 :3 exams tommorow wtf am I doing.....huhuhuhuh

Oi DANIAL!!!!!read my blog!!,ahhahahahah HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!!!!!OCBC?..

Honestly to think of such an act as being an unfair one, would mean that I am being unjust too.

I don't understand,really I don't understand....Instead of trying to understand I find reasons to jusitify why I don't understand.

One day I would like to experience Paris nights/new York mornings hahahaha.....I wonder if its as good as I imagined it to be

I don't know if u call this hardcore gangster rap etc,not trying to sound ghetto or whatever.hahaha wtf..but this song has been my jam much like many of his other works muahahahahah...so yeah here's mr j medeiros, the one whom U could buy an album and win a live chat once upon a time,....me likes to listen to it every time it's been a hard days night and I've been working like a doggggg.....lalalala kbai

Brain turning into fudge this holiday....has to study GAWDDD....why is it so hard to study????!!

Seven words that make u cry

Wombats

If I felt like everything was alright then obviously I would not say those things.
I mean,there are some stuff that bothers me,I know the world is much bigger than what u currently think I perceive it to be,
But I was hoping that u would try to help me with the parts where I'm kind off lost in.
Life is good for the most part,
Just that these kinds of things I do keep away and only tell ppl that I trust and know would listen or even try help me.
I know whiny whiny....~~~
But what can I do if it just don't seem to go away.....?
But anyway rest assure I won't bother u anymore,I will deal with it all by myself LIKE A MAN!!!
Wtf T-T ahhaah

Olympics is so close I can even smelllll it!!!!yeahhhh!!!!!!
Wonder what they doing there in London.
I know I'm slow but
Did u see Rupert Grint carrying the torch??ahhhhhhhh so cool oh ahhahahaa
I hope my cousins can come and sleepover tonight coz no one wants to watch the Olympics with me hahahah not even my hardcoreconstantlysleepinglate-dad hahahaha

Omgomgomg

The Olympics???!!!
This Saturday 4am...who want to watch with me :P
Ahhahaa I remember watching the opening in serita's house and closing with kimchi :D
But now can't anymore....
Wah time flies by so fast.....
I wonder how London is going to do.Their promotions have been so bad or is it just me?
Ahhhh can't wait!!!hahahah I hope they put as much effortor even more but who am I kidding in the opening,china's one was awesoooomeeeeh...

Today my cat,wait no the cat in my house which my family feeds
passed away,
Apparently it broke it's hips and had pneumonia,
Ahhh because I wasn't exactly emotionally attached to the cat can't say I'm feeling anything, but I thought it was worth mentioning.hmmm...

What else?
I can't bring myself to study even after having countless of breaks long oneS I might add.....should I try group study?hahahaha most of my friends are doing group study with Wong yi Han as the si Fu.hmmm I always studied alone maybe I should give this a try one day?

I have a sandfly bite on my leg so itchyyyy....
Last Sunday was Ariel's birthday party!!!
I gave him cherries hahahaha so significant lehh....
I brought my camera but failed to take pictures,
Urmm...it was fun la,nothing really interesting worth mentioning happen.
Oh suddenly I kena splashed wth not my bday even mann that was uncalled for,
And the chocolate cake was soooo goooood even though I only had a bite from charlene.

Kthnxbai

i know i should be studying but i cant.....noooo....

Holidays~~~the feelings of boredom and nothing to do-ness never felt so good!!!!
sitting doing nothing staring at computer....SO MUCH WIN!!!

I love to sit around and do nothing hahahaah....im so oldd....

just like my friend VIVIAN LIM JIA YHEE!!!!who has turn 18 today!!!

i would like to post an unglam photo but unfortunately for me I have the bad habit of relying on others to take photo,so I dont have any old photos....but now Im bringing my camera EVERYWHEREhhaahahah....

During talentine someones performance was so bad and boring we just had to ss lolwtf ahahahah

Yer....this year cant partayyy together...
hhahahaha I still remember last time I invited u to my birthday party then u wear the mashimaro shirt.
and how we ate only apples hahahahahah diet kunun....
and and and remember the sleepover before we went to Penang for choral speaking I think...hahaahha
oh remember how we won in Lahad Datu??then our face appear in newspaper!!!
then the principal slept in your apartment hahahaaha
Its so weird how we used to recite that script millions of times but now when I look back I cant even remember a line ahhahaah...
remember kimchi mum so scary came to school and coached us??hahahahah
and then the time u all slept above my room and u all kept running and screaming ahhahaha
and and  and how we were librarians then we become the worst prefects ever in All Saints hahaha
remember cg Tony tuition?and cg Jeanie tuition?and Jafri aahhahahahah.....
remember the sleepover during my birthday I was like u all better not sleep ah!!!then I fell asleep first ahahahah...
oh oh oh SUJU CONCERT!!!MAXIMUM TIPTOEING MANIA....YESUNGMOREHANDSOMEINREALIFENESS......stupid ninjas in Jay park ahahahah luckily no ninja problem in suju....hahahaahahah
urm....Im so glad to have such a good friend for such a loooooong time.
and  through all the dramas and crap Im glad we never drifted apart :')
Its so cool to still be such close friends with your primary school friend for so long....
and one day we both will be 38 aunties together ahahahahah lolol
we talk about government conspiracies and how the supermarket is trying to scam us and the lady who had plastic surgery on her a**.... ahahhaahha
Must still be my friend ah even if im annoying hahahahaah
oh oh oh
lastly May God Bless U!!!
and check ur phone more often baaaaa ahahahahaha
LETS GO HANGKAI one day :D

Almost forgot ILY LOADSSS!!!

Raining

It has been raining alot.
In a way it's good in a way it's bad.
But mostly good I guess.
Nice to sleep ~~~~ feels so good to be able to sleep.
I don't think I have regained all the sleep I lost,
I don't think I ever will haha since spm all the late nights had already accumulated to an infinite sum that is simply too astronomical to be met.daheck...
Hopefully I will get more chances to sleep again
Oh how much I love that sweet sweet slumber....ahhhhhhh and the cold rainy weather totally suits the current state of my lethargic lazy a**

I realized Tablo likes writing quotes involving rain
Like this one

this one

And this one

"For the dreamer, it always rains. Do not let that make you place a roof over your dream." - blonote 20100324

I remember writing this on the wall to motivate myself lol....

Kbai....too tired to upload pictures gahhhh

The amount I need to study makes me want to cry.

I can hear the sounds of the trash collector truck
It has begun

I hate staying up late to study :/
Can't even study properly
Hhhmmmmmmmmmm.
Please for all that's holy and good in the world.:(

Parts of songs stuck in my head

Cause I'm in too deep and I'm trying to keep up above in my head
Scared of going under

U can't expect me to be fine
I don't expect u to care

And If u leave here,
U leave me broken shattered,I lie

I'm so tired of never fixing the pain

혼자라도 웃으며 말하고 아무도 모르게 오늘도
나 혼자라도 웃으며 말하고 아무도 모르게
This song reminds me of waking up at 6 am going to school
Half dead getting out of bed T-T

its the middle of the year already :(

OMG what have you all been up to???

basically for me i have spent half the year doing lotsa crap for the school,spending and wasting most of my time in school T_T, late nights,eating cup noodles,going out,meeting lotsa new people and at the same time saying bye bye to good friends....
its not even the end of the year yet and I already find myself reminiscing and reflecting lololol.
I have a problem that has been bugging me and seems to me that its not going to be solve soon,well let me break it down to ya'll lol(if u bother la dont read la if u dont want T_T)
:For now the whole point of me continuing on in IS is that i really really dont know what to do.Honestly if I did know I would have gone away already too but problem is I dont and its really very hard to think of what to do especially when Im so busy doing crappy stuff.
My friends all have bright futures,any scholarship u name it they know it,how to get it the pros and cons, they're even preparing themselves to enter into the unis of their choice.
I would too u know if I knew what I wanted and where I wanted to pursue it.
Art or science?
on 9gag u can always see those
:Take an arts major they said,u will have fun they said
and then 'insert picture of trollface wearing mcdonalds uniform'
double degree?sure idea seems legit but the work u have to put into, and at the end of it all it is true what my father says, your going to end up drifting being neither here nor there,whose going to want someone who has basic knowledge on both subjects when they can have an expert on only one??
Law is kind of good suits me in a way somehow lololol,
but law is a looooooong and painful subject,
it takes a prettty daaaaaaaaamn loooooong time to practice as lawyer,
even longer to open a firm or be a partner in one to earn them big bucks.
le sigh~problems of an unmotivated college student lolololol

 But I realized why I was lost. Its not because I don't have a map. Its because I don't have a destination. – Takemoto

lastly seeing how motivated all my friends are,
trying out for stuff here and there getting experience enquiring about universities and courses,
I feel really left behind.
Everyone looks like they have a really really brightly lit future at the end of their tunnel,while mine seems so dark dimly lit and dodgy lolol.
I can even imagine myself sitting on the streets begging for money or working at mcdonalds because of my bad career desicions lolwtf!
and yeah the expectations,
people keep expecting ahhhhhh straight a student should be a genius!!!
coz a is for the good jobmaaa
a lawyer a doctor a dentistttttttt!!!!
so yeah I just poured out my heart and soul lolololpleasedontjudgeme okay

anyway,
i remember in the beginning of the year waiting for Miraen to comeback to celebrate her birthday.
wah it was like just yesterday we were like kind off planning her birthday and it already happened....lol
how fast time flies i dont know whether its good or not but yeahhh
here are pics from her really really huge mansion!!!!!so niceee..
I think she was the only one to move in so the whole posh neighbourhood was practically empty hahaaha,
we could make as much noise as we wanted.
I found it really funny how all the security guards know that Mi-ra-an is having a party hahahah

 Da people

 Food taste soooo good had seconds with Kimchi lol :') its been a long time since I was not the only one T_T haha

 'My hair its reddd~~~"

 Clement shy shy

 Da cake so delicious~~~strawberry mousse i think so goood

 This is how the living room looks like so niceeee and bigggg man got lots more pictures of the house hahahaah but im too lazy ahhaah and its weird hahahaha

 VIV CHIN READ MY BLOG GOT UR FACEE!!!hheheheheh

 i am not looking at the camera DARN IT!!

 Me and my buddy Cherry!!!

 Me and mademoiselle Clementine

 ahahahah Bernards face so biggg and LC hahahah

 I photobombed their picture well kinda oh wait no I actually enhance the aesthetic quality of it!!!!

 Suddenly walking up the stairsehhh got huge mirror!!!

 Miraen's room this is one of the few pictures of Charlene coz she keep saying she look ugly so she refuse to take any photos with me so sad ~~~ ahahahah

 KIMCHI!!!!!!!!!!so many stufffsss to talkinggzzz

 STEPHANIE!!!!so liang moi ahhahaha

 MARS!!!apparently Mars was also like Charlene refusing to take any photos.

 VIV CHIN!!!!!

 I have to bend down so much oh so that Bernard feel tall hahahah

 da people 2

 Miraen does not like

 thats not my finger

Happy birthday to Miraen lololol

okai gotsa study for chem test tommorow die lolololol