Regaining what was lost

Lololol

This few days was trying to according to my friend
"spend some time with myself"
The stuff we have to go through for school etc really bites into ur personal life man takes a huge chunk away
I mean not SS la i do that regularly lololol
But like with my family my house my bed sleeping,
So yeah I have been falling asleep a lot,
I can't take coffee which makes it even worse!!!
I feel like my mind izz telling me
"u has been overworkingggzzz for shizzo,now KOOOOOOOOO"and then boom I collapse and ko.
Seriously the level of my ko scares me,
I can't even hear the hair dryer blowing today
It is that bad.

Miraen called me twice,
Once when I had just woken up to study for about a good solid 5 minutes or so wtf
And once when I was about to fall back to sleep
Lolololol.

I don't get how u all think that way,
So complicated,
Why not just simplify it?I guess?
Actually honestly I really don't know what the situation is,
On the other hand I don't really know whether I should so yeah.
Better to just wait and see I guess.
The air in IS starting to get realllll sour,
The environment day thingy can be said to be in shambles lololol
Somehow I feel a drama conjuring up,
Looketh to be that way,
All in all
I just hope everything turns out ok.

Whatever it is gotta keep my head up high,
No matter what
Gotta keep it real lololol
wth

Now for some inspirational song lyrics

H to the izzo
V to the izza
Fo shizzle MA nizzle used to dribble down in VA

Lolololol
Ahhhh this song izzzza stuck in my head ahhhhh

No inspiration

So status report:

Newsletter?
PUBLISHED!!!!

Deco?
so fabulous so pimping super swagga level 1000!!!

Ahhahahahha wtfwtf

Monday lunch.me and Leo feasting on Keropok lekorzzz
Me:wah so hungry still hungry bla bla bla...
Leo:I'm so full
Me:ah u ate my share of Keropok lekor!!
Leo:Where got oh!!!how I know u hungry?
Me:I'm always hungry
Leo:true also

I burnt a cd I was so proud of making for my friends car.
Took quite along time lo to pick and choose!!!
I really hope he appreciates the effort I put to pimp his ride!!
He really desperately needs it. :(
I totally like upgraded his car's pimping swagga level up to at least 9000

I don't want to be in charge of environmental day deco!!!I just want to help and supervise please don't make me be in charge again especially at such short notice!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhh circular motionnnnn!!!

Got very high the other day most probably due to the lack of sleep T_T doing the moral report char,Shaun,nicholes and Janice wazzz there.
5 hours man of total craptastic mania!!
Later on the highlight of the day
I know it's illegal an all....
But I so totally ate sharks fin
I'm sorry :( but it was so good so goooood

My sister:a thousand years passed when u shower.

I hate it when u see someone so down
then u ask
are u ok?
coz u know what else can u possibly come up with?
then they say nothing
i mean i would say nothing too
coz trying to condense a whole bunch of bullshit into a short endurable length of bullshit, so that the amount of f's given by the receiver is still directly proportional to the amount needed wtfwtf is quite hard.
I get that.i get emo too sometimes,we all do.
just sometimes reach out when someone gives u a hand,its not that hard,
wait it is hard but yeahhh i dont know im not a master.....

All saints amanahnians!!!
people coming back from all over etc wtf
me:I want to have reunion!!
char:havent even one year we separated
lololololol

Honestly I don't get it?
I don't know whether I'm supposed to get it or not
But quite frankly i feel that sometimes being left in the dark is actually good
Not the best thing but good.
I don't understand why I'm expecting so much?
I don't want to expect anything anymore!!
But why do I still stand there expecting stuff??
Seriously I don't get it?I don't understand what's happening really.
Why do I even bother anyway??
Why why why?!
I really should never ever ever ever try anymore
I should make a vow!
I really feel that
The more harder I try the more effort is wasted
Wasting my time my concern my thoughts etc etc
Ahhhhh all that effort wasted
Anyway,
The more I try to explain,the more twisted it gets.so I'll just end it here.

Just go with the flow they said,everything will be fine they said.

Please dont think of me that way I am not like that.T-T

kthnxbai
i wrote this like at random days,
compiled them all
i know i know
look like ramblings of a disturbed mind ahahahahah
sorry no pics
almost almost.....
im still very lazy waitla u bernard say my blog boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK BAI BAI  :D

My favourite expression~~aahahah

IS NIGHT hahaha

I really love how everyone worked together,
and how everyone's input made the deco sooo kickass!!!!!!!!
I realized the most important thing (just like real estate)is
location location location
everything needs to be placed perfectly at the right place with the right orientation and yadayadayada
I would like to thank everyone for everything
seriously thank you!!!
I know i was very annoying(when am i not muahahah) the way i kept asking whether is this ok?if i put this here is this okay?if i move it to the right is it okay?if i put this pebble here is it okay?
ahhaahha
I have pictures once again its not on this comp maybe going to get it later too lazy.

Well let me talk about the 17th of June
so I went there like super early(earlier than charlene which is super early coz charlene is always early)
Then in the end could not start working until like 9 or something(reached there at 8 or so)coz I had to wait for people to come and give me stuffs that i left in their car T_T
then after everything was set up,
the pebble pathway was the only thing left,
i kept bugging the hotel guy in charge(i realized that I really have to tell him that im realy sorry for being annoying and bugging him so much ahahaha)he told me the stone people were on their lunch break.
He told me this like at 10 or 11??then the stone people only came at 3
how awesome to work at sutera!!!4 hour lunch break man   
but then again they did a superb job and the staff was nice and at least none of them were linci like the Jay park concert one T_T.ahahah
And we were suppose to exploit their man power according to Mr Tan lolwtf
but then again they move everything around and like so ma fan they cannot do what we want,so in the end we ended up doing everything ourselves.and THANK GOD, everything came out exactly right
when I came back from getting ma hair done 
I saw all the spotlights and stuff on my photobooth I was like O_OZOMG!!!
the fruits of my hard labor :')and of course everyone else who helped me move things and set things up
ahahahah 
I was really really reluctant to stay in Sutera and just get ready there coz like I knew my make up skillz is da non existence and my dress was not that extraordinary so to the saloon we goooooo.....at least u know la do hair look different a bit from in school liddat, takkanla prom look so lansi la kan!?
so anyway I made sure everything was okay first than go likeagoodgirl!!lololololwtf T_T
ok so then my sis kept on bugging me to develop her photos
so i did
she takes pictures with this film camera, sometimes i help her
heres some of the outcome of the older ones.






 

  
 

I really like this tree outside my house when it flowers so pretttayyy hahaha

 picking strawberries!!
 

 forever alone duck.seriously it was the only white duck in the pond it keep making quack quack sound.

actually got more nice one but I cant find it ahahahah
wth I realized im like an obstruction in most of the pictures ahahaah 
ahahahah take this as my ss picture lololol
till I have le photographs
kla bai bai

IS night........AHhhhhHHHHh

What im really worried about is all the money I spent.
Sureeeee the ideas look great in my mind,
but if I can't pull it off
it's my ass that's on the line.
:(
damnit damnit damnit.

dont know why...

right now....
exactly right now...
at this time and day...last year
I would be in Jafri tuition trying my best not to fall asleep,
listening to all the lame jokes,
that honestly is quite funny XD
sitting in between Miraen and Charlene,
sitting behind is the usual:Clement and Alex,
and Clements 'long' hairy legs that always kick our chair
and his stupid questions,
until teacher say something like he think so much outside the box until there is no box or something like that wtf cant remember
Alex 38ing all da time,call lola lola....heheheh(HELLO LAURA if u ever see this!! :D)
Stanley updating us about the latest gossip,
OMG U KNOW WHAT BELLA DO!!!!U KNOW THAT GAY TEACHER etc...
Me and Charlene and Miraen always somehow wearing camp/henthorne/ASCF shirt
Miraen laughing like a sasat and telling us all the funny stories about Kenny and friends ahahahahah WTFWTF
The 38 telepathy between me mir and stanley coz we same frequency got resonance hahaha wtfwtf
I miss those moments where we make 'the face' terus understand what we want to say to each other ahahahahah

I realized so long I go out never have all this ppl wan
somtimes got two
sometime got three paling paling,
I dont have photo also haiyahhh
yer I want go kl go hang kai!!!!so many places to go compared to here T_T blehhh
we must ambil gambar
I WANT POLAROID so i can put in my purse.
I miss everbadiiiii!!!

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I'm Really tired
And it's really hard
I want to ask for help
But I'm not sure how to
Making so many decisions in such a short timespan is very hard
Very very hard indeed

Everyday is like

sit down in my thinking chair
Think,think...thiiiinnnk

Except for me the 'thinking chair' is hypothethical laaa
Wtf
If u dont know this song u have no childhood!!
Although it's really shitty all the thinking that I have to do
At the end,
The experience I gain is ""'kind of'"" rewarding.and fun?!
I put a lot of tauke to show my sarcasm I hope u can feel it thru the computer screen wtfwtfwtf hahahah
Eg.I get to go all out in decorating,buying all sorts of shiz and and and and and the best part IT'S NOT MY MONEY!!!ahahhaha wtf.

So recently,
The venue of the prom has been changed
DRAMABOMB
I'm to lazy to get into it in detail coz no one cares anyway.so yeah!

Kbai!!!

Damnit I just realized I'm procrastinating again T-T

Oh yah!!!
I really cannot think properly baaaa

STANLEY CHEN HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!
I HOPE U HAD A GREAT ONE!!!!!
AND MANY MORE TO COME!!!
DON'T WORRY U ARE VERY SMART SURE CAN SUCESS ONE!!!
DON'T STOP BEING 38 SO U CAN TELL ME ALL THE STORIES!!!:D
SKYPE WITH ME AND UPDATE ME!!!!XD!!!SORRRRYYYYYYYY!!!!

I want time to stop now!!

Its the last day of the holidays...

how i wish i had more...

School is actually very tiring,

very very tiring,

studying during the holidays was an illusion as I did nothing of the kind,

just trying to get my work done,
and stress releaseeeeeeeeee,

have to study tommorow,

driving on Monday arrrrrhhhhhhh.T_T

I had a bad dream last night,

then again depends on what your definition of bad is

maybe it was my conscience,

maybe it was something that i ate.

From now on life please be nice to me :)

It's the first of June everybaddddiiiii

I just had a nap and a shower
Best feeling in the world...
:D :D :D
After like saving the planet from it's impending doom by increasing it's lifespan by at least 1 week...:D
Imma badassenvironmentalistthatkickspeoplesassandsavestheworldwhilebeingincomprehensiblyrich
Hahahahahhaha

So anyway I went to the bird park,
With my teammates,
We were like pulling weeds from the pond,
Then we attack all the factory owners,
And they all died.
The end
Everyone was really kickass except Nicholes who almost died at least 7 times,and Charlene who was so covered in poo that the owner of a kopitiam ask her why was she so covered up in poo,and Shaun who could not stop farting,I kept on laughing I was so close to blowing my cover when I had to infiltrate the mafia boss building like a factory near the sanctuary.
Janice was there too,it's funny but its kind off weird to call her by her name as she has the same name as my mother T-T
It feels like I'm being disrespectful.ahahahahha wtfwtf

Okay good day everybody
I'm off to make pizzas
Forreal.
Aha ahahahahah