Am i getting too sick?

Im sick :(
my voice is gone.

Alot of times i think
why put so much effort in it at all?
Personally and profesionally
why ah why ah?
More better don't try la,
sit there like a duck.

WTF MY SICKNESS KILLING DA BRAINCELLS

I WISH I CAN TALK I REALLY REALLY DO!!!
So many things I want to say to everyone :(