slowly everything starts coming back to me,
that feeling,the tightness in my heart,the rush of adrenaline,like falling in love,like finally realizing ive moved on,like seeing the calm after the storm, finding the solution to all of my problems....
unfortunately this can never be requited...
ive lost it,
i really did,
this love of mine is not mine,
how can it ever be mine?
im different,
im not capable,
I feel so stupid...
am i really lost?
Ive tried soul searching,
looking deep into myself,
19 years just doesnt spell much,
but why is it at this moment,
i start to realize i wasnt lost all along...
i feel like kicking myself in the kidneys.
i should just slap myself and call it a night T_T
